I was driving home and it had been a week since I have felt well enough to drive myself anywhere and I just got the biggest smile on my face and realized that "Life is fun, I felt like I was 16 yrs old and just got my drivers license and this is the first time I've driven on my own. I'm so grateful for my life and my love for life!"
Back to symptoms, I'm not gonna lie this really sucks!! Where to start, I guess I'll just list them.
The end of my tongue is numb all the time, so weird, and alot of times my lips are numb and always so dried out. I got sores on my tongue once and they were awful but they haven't come back and hopefully won't. Everything tastes like salt for about 2 weeks of the month, but I'm learning to eat anyways. My eyes are so sensitive to the sun and bright lights and for some reason they just drop tears (I do cry alot) but thats not it my eyes just tear all the time. My skin gets very dried out on my hands to where it will just be bright red and then peel off. My arms get these weird red spots all over them but no pain their just ugly. I guess the big one is my hair falling out (really there are so many worse things in life) My hair didn't just fall out all at once. I would run my fingers thru my hair and my hand would just be full of hair so I decided we would shave it so I didn't have hair all over the bedroom and bathroom. There are times when the skin on my head just hurts. When we shaved my head I did a full body shave and haven't shaved since and all is silky smooth still. (Don't be jealous but it truly is nice) I did have my eyebrows tattooed on and the weird part is part of them are still there and my eyelashes are still there which is such a blessing, I can just see myself with my fake eyelashes falling off half way thru the day and my eyebrow pencil smudged across my face! I'm so vain, bald and I'm still vain so character traits run deep. I was getting a wart on my hand and had 2 others and they are gone so all is not negative. Hot flashes are pretty steady as is fatigue. The nasuea is a big deal but the meds control it so well. I just hate putting all these pills inside my poor body.
I am either having diahrrea and can't keep any food in or I'm constipated and having stomach cramps. Sleep hasn't been to bad thanks to my meds. My balance has not been so good, I almost fell down the steps when Holly was here with me visiting, good reason not to ride my bike. I take Claritan every morning and it seems to keep me from shooting pain thru my body. Before I learned about Claritan it felt like pain was just shooting thru me all the time, now I just get like restless legs that won't relax. I've learned to only eat about 1/3 of a meal and then I won't get sick, should be good weight loss but I forget sometimes and get sick because I love food and treats.
Enough complaining, I truly am so blessed that I can take all the meds that I hate so much and I can usually function pretty well. I do realize that I am so blessed to be going thru this with my end result being no cancer left anywhere!! What a true blessing. And seriously my poor breasts hurt for so long we went from the drainage to the biopsy to the surgery to a port, there's a true blessing theres no more pain in this area!
